Just got out of the hospital. Hopefully Ill do better. My mom visited me there and said shes sorry for stressin me out so much. And its true cuz she does stress me out. At least I got meds done. The plan looks good from here. Now im just at home. Thinkin about joggin. I think im hungry? IDk my stomach feels weird. Right now I dont have a gurl friend. Im definetly not looking right now. In my life right now Im tryna stand up and its tough I am definetly one hot mess.  Now my friends that ive known never call me or return my text or phone calls. They obviously dont care. I guess i was to bronging for them. They dont make me feel welcome when I am with them either so. Tryna find a job and its not going very successful. Yesterday I believe I was followed by the cops lol. I was applying at places to work and the cop followed me to three different buisnesses that I applied at?? lol wow. aha. As for right now Im just at home. Right now I feel like I should be somewhere else. IDK where though. So basically I have no life whatsoever....I have no job, I have no friends, and Im not in school. Dont feel bad for me though. I dont know where I should work actually. I have an Interview comming up preety soon at least. I gotta shot and Im not going to let it slip away. I feel very ready in my life. Starting over again. Its like another episode to my life. RECOVERY. Im a nice person good at listening. You know how a stranger can say something you do and make your day. Its the little things that count. I am those little things. Thats why I would like to be a psychitrist or counsler. Im not a judgemental person and that comes from the heart. Alrite its getting to mushy. but Anywayz if I could have anything I wish that I could meet new friends!, Get a job, and go to school. Well thats it for now. Please wish me luck. I definetly will need it. Thank You and Goodbye. :]

this girl said "who would want to sleep with that" to me!! first she was ugly as hell but i wont go into detail because im better than that.

   

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Well I dont smile that much. I can either feel really sad or really happy. When i meet someone I hope I dont come off as mean because im not. i have one hell of a past. Im just tryna take one tiny step at a time. These days rite now are preety crappy. Im definetly not at the highest point in my life rite now. Despite what im going threw right now I refuse to go in circles. I just let go of sum of my used to be closest friends. But all my friends leave me sumtime. They change and I dont. Theres times in my life where I would try to be someone Im not. Haha...it was one hell of a ride though. Just not for me. Idk what to do. Sometimes I cant explain myself.....